Jesus, I need You

Sometimes life's just not so hot
Some friends are real, some are not
But all my closest friends, the ones that are real
Are moving on in life, leaving me behind

Life is tough, it's hard not to cry
Watch from the airport, planes in the sky
There goes my girlfriend, there goes my mate
Off to a new life, I'm just stuck here

Why must I live now, alone and afraid?
My world as I know it is coming unmade
Has it been worth it, to love them at all
When all I have left are memories and pain?

God, please help me. I know that you're there
I know that you love me, I know that you care
But they're all going their own separate ways
Will I ever be able to see them again?

Sometimes it's hard to feel your touch
I feel so lonely, the pain is too much
Will the ache in my heart ever fade?
Will I ever be whole again?

These friends have made me who I am today
And now they're leaving, flying away
So much of my life, they're all really great
I can't say goodbye, I can't take the pain

I can't cope with it
I've already fallen
I've tried this before
It's too much to take

It hurts so much to say goodbye
Every time, feels like I've died
I need your love, God. I need your touch
How can I live here, left behind?

I know that soon the pain is coming
I just want to run, and never stop running
I can already feel my heart tearing
God, please don't make me go through it all

It's so easy to trust you when life doesn't hurt
But when things are like this, and keep getting worse
I don't know what to do now
I can't take it anymore

I need you, Jesus
Now, more than ever before

-June 11, 2001