What love is this?

How deep the Father's love
How awesome His compassion
For years I turned my back on Him
Tried to do things my way
Did what felt good
No thoughts for tomorrow
I was
young
invincible
fearless


Wrong

The choices I made still
haunt me
sometimes, on nights like this
I wonder
how
could I have been so foolish
thoughtless
careless
how did I ever think it was about
me, even for a moment?

and I am ashamed
without excuse


Why did you not forsake me, God?
Why did you keep loving me?
Why were you right there when I needed you?

Even in my arrogance You
protected me
loved me
guided my every step

longing, hoping
waiting for me to
turn around and
acknowledge you,
see you, and smile
to love you, even a little

What do you see in me, O my King?
Who am I, that you think of me,
want me
to see your face?

O Lord, what Love is this??

another short one

So I have some stuff I've written recently that I want to post, but it's on paper, and is at home in Charleston, and I'm here in Waxhaw... so, in the meantime here's what else is new. God is constantly poking and prodding me in so many areas of my life that I need to change. Every time I struggle through one thing and finally (with a massive amount of help from Him) get it straightened out, He points out another shortcoming, another area where I could be more like Christ. It is actually really awesome! It's so exciting to see everything that my Lord and my Savior has done with me and through me in the last few months. And the things He has done for me. One particularly bright and shining example is the godly, loving, stunningly gorgeous woman He has placed in my life. She's amazing, and it's been incredible getting to know her better each day. She lives up here in Waxhaw, but so far it's worked out for us to see each other fairly regularly. I'm really excited about seeing what God does with this relationship, and about devoting it wholly and completely to Him. He is truly an awesome God!