Back on shift work

Tonight will be my third night of mids... the first week I've had to work mid-shift since July. I went back to crew (and shift work) ten days ago, and I'll be doing this until I leave for NSI in late January. I wasn't very happy about leaving my nice day-staff job, but I am trying to make the best of it and trust God that He has reasons for where He has me right now. Thankfully Naomi has been very understanding and supportive of me with my weird schedules now, and has gotten used to me calling at all sorts of strange times of the day. It has been just under a month that we've been dating now, and I'm still amazed every time I talk to her or see her by God's plans and timing. This relationship was really not something that I felt at all prepared for, and God has been using it in many ways to grow me and stretch me in my walk with Him. It has been amazing to me to see His faithfulness every step of the way, and He has been teaching me every day to find my strength in Him, and to give up every part of my old self to Him. Every day He brings to mind more areas of my life that need His power and cleansing, and every day I realize more and more my complete dependence on Him. Learning to trust Him completely has been hard... there's so many areas of my life where I want to be in control, so many decisions that I want to make for myself, so many parts of my life that I don't want to change or don't think I can change. But at the same time it is so completely awesome to see Him at work in every facet of my life, changing and renewing and healing. There's so much room to grow, and I thank God that in His wisdom He only reveals to me as much as I can handle at one time. Sometimes it seems like more than I can take, but He is faithful. Always. Even my bad days aren't that bad anymore. He is always at work, and I am so grateful to Him for that.



Lord, please never let me become satisfied with who I am while I am still living in this sinful human body. I pray that every day You would point out the areas in my life that do not conform to You. The habits, the thoughts, the attitudes... Lord, I want to be more like You. Let me never lose sight of that goal. Let it permeate my every thought, my every action, my every word. Thank you for Your power to change lives. I am a life that was changed. Let me never cease to give You glory and honor and praise.